Friday, October 19, 2007 // 11:58 PM
sometimes i just don't know why i get so easily affected over things.
i hate it, but its how i feel, how am i suppose to not feel it?
i don't know
sometimes i don't know how to react to the situation.
am i suppose to smile and get over it?
or maybe it happens because of a reason?
am i suppose to keep a straight face?
i dont know...its just so confusing..
its like...so fake...
i am a very ambitous person.
i mean, who is not right?
its like who wants to be the worst?
deep down you know that you want to be the best,
even if not the best, you will want to be better than others what.
thats human,
its this feeling that you have that makes you feel like striving harder
competition is everywhere
sometimes a few simple words can just hit you down so hard.
and i don't know why i am even taking it so seriously,
i know its meant for my own good,
and it does not exactly mean that i'm such a loser.
but somehow, i just feel affected.
i know that in such situations,
i should not be here blogging and whining,
in fact, i should treat it as a learning point and try to improve
but i have my pride. and ofcourse i will feel a little hurt.
i just need to complain a little, thats all.
however, i am still very sure that i will still put in my best efforts
after all, i'm doing it for myself.
but please. just give me a break.
i'm tired of all these competitions.
i'm sorry but i'm having a very low moral at this point.
i have very big dreams,
but is it wrong to dream big?
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