Tuesday, September 22, 2009 // 9:46 PM
FINALLY got internet in my house.
thats good (:
I feel like i've been here for agess, but in actual fact, its only two weeks.
i hope october comes faster, hope my mum comes faster.
I wanna go back to Singapore some time this year, but i can't because i don't have much holidays.
I don't want the next time for me to go back to be chinese new year, cos its next feb omg.
recently, classes has been bad for me.
Every single lesson, caiying laoshi will call my name and scream at me for doing something wrong.
argh i wish i'm more flexible and stable.
i feel like i'm getting tighter and tighter lah.
and omg caiying laoshi is going to bring her weighing machine to weigh us every friday. thanks man -.-
i can't do anything properly in all my classes lahh...
i don't understand how the people around me manage to be so good, i wish i can be like all my teachers. and living in the same house with a ballet pro makes me feel so demoralised.
ah crap even i cannot stand myself complaining.
i'm just going to do something else.
sianned.
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Friday, September 11, 2009 // 8:32 PM
still haven't gotten any internet, its been two weeks..and it's kind of boring because i don't have a television at home too.
but yaye i'm gonna get internet connection from joni tmr cos she has an extra one.
and the ever so kind alisa will be donating her television here next tuesday! i'm really so thankful for the both of them(:
its been a little more than a week of school and i'm quite sure i'm starting to feel tired from the classes and OH MY GOODNESS TO ALL THE PRESSURE. i'm such a dance retard really and even if all the teachers are starting out with all the simple and basic stuffs, i feel as if i can't do any of then properly. Its always never enough and this and that.
Folk dance is kind of difficult for me, i always knew i was never a ming jian wu person. I wanna dance like all my teachers, but i can never do that.
i can't believe i'm feeling stressed about most of my class when it is barely the second week of school.
Having chinese technique everyday really kills my body, and i can totally feel my body getting more achey and tight as each day pass. It's like i have to use extra strength and energy in class everyday in order to do the class. But i glad that the class pushes me, not that i enjoy being competitive in class, but i'm thankful that i have a teacher like caiying laoshi to scream at us everyday.
shen yun has been fun, although i was quite unhappy at a certain point of time, but i enjoyed most of the classes.
I wish contemp classes could be faster, but i'm quite sure it will soon...i think..
Life in APA now is really quite different from last year.
somehow, i kind of miss common year, i miss being in THE common year class.
Right now everyone has been split into their own majors and groups, i feel like we're all starting to be strangers all over again.
i know its inevitable that we'll all drift apart, but seriously, a part of me just don't want to.
sometimes the life here really makes me wonder if i can really stay here for another 4 more years....
it'll be perfect if my life in Hongkong and Singapore could happen all at the same time.
I miss Singapore, my family, my friends...
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Wednesday, September 02, 2009 // 9:19 PM
First day of school with technique classes coming in.
went to school today quite nervous about taking classes as a second year.
its a familiar feeling walking to school yet i was still quite scared and lost when i was walking to my first class.
the first class was technique skills, and i was like running around the school with elizabeth because we were quite confused as to where the class is, and i can't find any of my class's girls.
haha we ended up meeting in to the dean of and dance and she was like asking if we were lost.
in the end we combined with the male's class, but its for a month only lah
well, class was....similar to last year's chinese technique because its Billy Sir.
but i'm sure today was just a "warm-up" class haha. good good, prepare me first.
cos i was already shaking, wa lao i'm so weak after the holidays lah
then chinese technique class with the degree 1 students.
oh man, the class is TOO big ):
i was kind of looking forward to have classes with little ppl, but in the end we still combined with the year threes
had lunch and then chinese folk afterwards. and i can't do wei wuer for nuts, i've never really done it before and i think i'm so retarded lah sian diao. nevermind, just practise lo
oh and one good thing today is that elizabeth can finally start taking class from tmr onwards, yayes!
i'm at my aunt's place now and their house is so comfy and nice lor, i wanna stay here for like..forever!
i hope my mother comes here soonnnn
i think i'm gonna ache tmr, especially my yao lor
and the first lesson tmr is chinese technique with caiying laoshi, wah i'm gonna die, and i'm freaking scared actually
hais i should just go to sleep. and i don't have to wake up early tmr (:
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