Saturday, December 10, 2011 // 12:07 PM
我想逃避
不想坚强的去面对
不甘心的是你对我的教导，根本都不符合你最后对我的评语。
怎么可以随随便便就那么轻易的指责我所付出过的努力。
我可以是个烂透的舞者，但我觉得你身为老师，最起码的就是尝试着帮我改进，
为什么你可以平时都说我做对的，到最后的一天却可以说我这一整个学期都没做好，
最不甘心的是你说你已经说了我很多次，
请允许我冒昧的说句：拜托， 你哪有
难道你平时上课对我说的那些都是在骗我吗，让我傻傻的相信，我身体所体会到的东西是对的，但其实我根本就是错到不行。这是什么教学方法啊
就这样，你可以编出那么多根本都没发生过的事情，然后把我一脚踢到那最不起眼的地方
我很惊讶，因为我真搞不懂。
我真蠢，作为一名学生，我是真心的相信我所有的老师，包括你，相信你们的专业知识，相信你们做得东西是为我们好，但现在，我怎么会有被骗的感觉呢
对不起，这样的教学方法，我发现我这一学期什么都学不到
你真认为这是我应得的吗？
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Thursday, December 08, 2011 // 9:17 PM
失望。
怎么样都轮不到我
其实我会吃醋，
其实我会在意，
其实我很想有人相信我能够承担这个责任，
其实我很想有这个机会。
有时候，被宠真好，
有时候，很希望会有人能服我一把，
帮我铺铺路也好，帮我争取个机会也好，
欲望总是变成失望。
这一路走来，真辛苦，怎么连一次机会都轮不到我
这心情，真的很难受
第四年了，我真的那么差劲吗，
我不想，我不服气
每次发生这些事，我总告诉自己，会有更好的，有一天机会会到手的
但....哎，我越来越不相信了
我想要的那一点点信任，
真的有那么难吗？
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Wednesday, December 07, 2011 // 9:52 PM
have been procrastinating tracing trends essay since forever. but i really don't want to do it. i don't even know where to start looking for infomation and where to start writing about. okay i shall leave it to the weekend.
science presentation tmr.
korean presentation nxt wed
italian presentation next fri (spoils the fun of last day of sch -.-)
wendy chu's essay due next wed!!! (OMG)
yea为最后的这几份功课努力，撑下去！
adapting to changes can be quite tiring at times,
but it may be the best thing to do for the time being
sometimes i just want to be able to talk to someone who doesn't judge me for my flaws
I am dreaming tonight of a place i love
even more than i usually do
and although i know
its a long road back
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Tuesday, December 06, 2011 // 10:06 PM
love christmas.
as far as i can remember, every christmas is spend submerged in a pool of warmth
i can't wait to go back to my loved ones.
i'm so excited i'll be smiling on the plane back to singapore :)
less than two more weeks and i'll be in a totally different environment
somewhere where the people are true and sincere
a place where my heart will always be
a place where i call home
i'll be home for christmas :)
for now, its just homework, more homework, and presentations.
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Thursday, December 01, 2011 // 11:01 PM
不想这个学期结束
不想停止练功，不想在两个星期的假期里退功，好不容易有点希望慢慢的在提升自己，真不想回来winter term又要从新开始，而winter term的课难免也会比平常hea，
不想那么快到第二学期，因为我知道第二学期会眨眼就过，然后我就快毕业了。如果我没法做个演员，那我宁愿永远做个学生。
虽然功课堆成山，但当学生的感觉真好，很珍惜每一天的课，再累也值得。
如果我们基训课没那么多人就更好了，呵呵
gonna have a packed weekend
going to shenzhen on saturday
have rehearsal from 1pm-7pm on sunday.
and i haven't do the 起承转合essay, omg. and wendy chu's essay. OMG.
wanna watch birdhouse factory, didn't manage to get the free tics, but i hope students have discount!
need to find a time to go watch it. maybe next week ahaha
tomorrow got italian test.
Io sto malissimo
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