Sunday, December 30, 2007 // 9:49 PM
wow i haven't been blogging for super long hhahah
christmas was great with my cousins
had a lot of fun
hmm, went back to xmcd to see see
it was super fun with ebird, limin and joey hahah
the new dances that they are going to learn for the concert are nice
oh and me and ebird are allowed to put up one item in next year's concert
yayes! we've already chosen the dance, i can't wait to start learning it hehehs
and i realised that the TAT dance lessons that i've been going on sundays
are not really under TAT (theatre arts troupe)
but rather HongLei dance company haha
today, Dinghong laoshi couldn't make it for class
so Zhoulei laoshi took over.
and i had my first lesson with Zhoulei laoshi.
he is a very strict teacher, his high expectations gave me much pressure
and today he told us a lot of things about professional trainings and going professional
i guess after the class i was just quite dissapointed with myself
and seriously i don't even know if i will ever fufill my dream or not.
i know i'm not good enough yet.
but i hope i will be good enough soon.
i will work hard
actually i'm lucky to have good dance teachers.
but that aside, the more important thing lies in myself
i can only rely on myself to improve and work hard
my teachers are just there to point out my mistakes
and i'm the one who needs to practise extra hard to get it right.
sometimes i'm just so fustrated with myself.
fustrated with how timid i am,
fustrated with how i lack self confidence
fustrated with the amount of self disipline i have.
i guess i need to learn to dare to make mistakes
because i want to learn more
i want to be better.
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Thursday, December 20, 2007 // 1:23 PM
i just came back from ebird's church camp
or rather 'luxury camp' hahah
but it was super fun!!!!
hahha i'm so thankful that i went
the people were great!
the games were nice
everything was just wonderful
i just had so much fun there
and we all got really dirty and disgusting playing the games hahah
i miss the camp now.
miss the people
miss elizabeth and deborah
oh yeah, ytd me and ebird left the camp for a while to go to xmcd's practise
danced with them abit
its good that they are still doing fine
hope that they'll love the new dance haha
and it great seeing them again!
me and ebird had a long talk with zls
and i think that now i'm much clearer about what i want to do
i have a little bit more confidence in myself about what i want
hahah i'm glad that zls encouraged me and elizabeth to pursue what we love
it made me feel much more relieved (:
later i'm going to watch neoyun's dance concert with elizabeth and deborah
and its neoyun's birthday today! hahah
ahh i can't wait to go for more dance lessons!
i've been missing it for the past three weeks
and i can't wait for next year's "dances of the orient"
hope it'll start quickly hehes
aiyoh i'm so sad that i have no performances coming up
hmm, last sunday's TAT practise was nice.
it was refreshing, and funny at times
very enjoyable (:
ah well, i think that my cousins from malaysia are coming to my house soon
and it's my ahgong's birthday today!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH GONG!
we are all going to his house to celebrate later.
i should go and bathe now
bye!
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Monday, December 10, 2007 // 11:11 PM
whee yesterday we went to Lugu lake
its where a lot of mosuo ppl live
and i saw A LOT of mosuo ppl lah
we even went inside their houses to see their living conditions
its quite laid back and poor
then at night we stayed in a richer mosuo family house
but when it was around evening that time
there was a black out!
and the whole village was pitch dark
and it was so cold lah
then we all gathered in the dining room and light candles
and we entertained ourselves by singing with the mosuo ladies
the mosuo ladies all sing very well
all got that ming2 zu2 singing voice
and they are very shy about about things like love and stuff haha
then this uncle from our group kept doing so many funny things lah
then we kept playing with the ladies
it was so funny i tell you.
hahha aiyoh i don't know how to explain lah, you can ask me if you want haha
and hor, the trip from Lijiang to Lugu lake is 7-8 hours leh!
and the road is all the roads around the moutains, so they are all stones
the whole trip was so bumpy
wah i sit in the bus sit until butt pain arh
i think i slept from half of the journey hahah
the other half was spent learning musuo songs from the tour guide
and our tour guide is a real mosuo person
she lives in the moutains with other mosuo ppl, where they survive on their own with no electricity and such
hahah my tour group are all very spontaneous de
they all sang very loudly when learning the songs
and almost everyone did a solo to show off what they've learnt
haha i wanted to show off my "chun1 miao2" (rose and junyi shld know)
but in the end never lah hahaha
the Lugu lake is very nice
its so blue and clear, with the mountains and islands as backgroud
its super nice!
then when we came back today
halfway through the journey there was a landslide!
then our road was like almost blocked
then our smart bus driver went zoom across the whole thing
wah lucky we survived lah, i sat at the window seat
and can see one huge rock almost banging onto us already
lucky the bus driver was fast enough
anyway i am back in the chalet at Lijiang already
its like every chalet have their very own bartler
so cool lah
my bartler makes very nice breakfast
and she takes very good care of everyone here
haha she is using QQ on this computer now..
i think today is the last day i can use the computer already
cos i will be checking out tmr and going to shangri-la
and tonight, which was just now
we went to watch "li4 shui3 jin1 sha1"
I SAW MY MOSUO GUY!
he still dances as nice as ever
this time i saw his face, hahaha
but actually the mosuo village in Lugu lake have a lot of handsome mosuo guys also lah haha
oh yah, the mosuo guy in "li4 shui3 jin1 sha1" is a real mosuo person leh!
he is really a mosuo guy who grew up in the mosuo village from young
the cheorographer for this whole "li4 shui3 jin1 sha1" is yang liping's teacher
and he chooses his dancers like how yang liping chooses her dancers for "dynamic yunnan"
they really go to the tribe and choose the best dancer in the tribe
so if you see someone dancing dai zu wu in the show,
that person is really from dai zu
which means that the mosuo guy is really a mosuo person leh!
hahahha
hmm this computer load super slow lah
and i can't even go and visit blogs
so cannot even see my own blog
i can only blog lah.
i am so cold now,
tmr will be much colder at shangri-la
oh man, i don't have time to do shopping here lah!!
our schedule is so packed.
its all visit here visit there.
hmm, tmr at shangri-la we are going to visit a zhang4 zu2 family
hope it'll be fun
i miss singapore
i miss my home
i miss my friends
today is day 5, got 4 more days to go
hmm, i can't use the computer already
my mother is like rushing me cos there are ppl who wants to use too hahaha
so i'll stop here,
anyway, the scenery here in yunnan is so beautiful
ahhaha
okay bye!
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Saturday, December 08, 2007 // 11:07 PM
yay this computer finally loaded
i was waiting for a long long time
well at the airport on wednesday
i realised that i am actually taking the same flight as phan laoshi hahahha
and shi ling(xms) also.
wah so coincidence lah, met two ppl from xinmin taking the same flight
i'm in Lijiang now!
it's really cold here.
tonight's temperature is 0 degrees
and i am feeling cold now cos i just bathe and i'm not wearing my jacket
anyway, tonight i am staying in a chalet in Lijiang
so there is 8 person per house.
i guess the rest are sleeping already
cos it seems that i am the only one down here in the living room using the computer
but i have to hurry up cos i can't use the computer for long
for the past few days i was in Kunming, then Dali
and tmr we are going to Lugu lake, then to shangri-la
so its getting colder and colder
we've visited many places
and we went to eat at some hotel where i stayed before last year with xmcd
visited some places that i've visited before too.
and yesterday i went to watch "hu2 di2 zhi1 meng4"
its like a show in the theatre where there is some acrobatics and dance
and guess who i saw?
i saw xiao3 na4
he is the tour guide that brought xmcd around dali last year
and he actually rmbed us leh ahhaha!!
i took a photo with him too.
oh yah
i am going to watch "li4 shui3 jin1 sha1" again!
it is the show that the xmcd watch last year
where THERE IS MY MOSUO GUY!!!!
so that means I AM GOING TO SEE HIM AGAIN YAY!!
apparently, my tour group is quite facinated with the musuo ppl and their love life.
but yay i am going to see the mosuo guy! what fate!
hmms, didn't really get to shop
and we actually changed our shopping day to sight seeing day!
so that means i have no shopping
and may not get to buy things back too ):
but i'll try lah.
my tour group is filled with different kind of people
they are all quite friendly too.
oh yah, my hotel for the past few days were lovely
the food is much better than those that we had last year as well
hahha today after dinner we went for a walk
and we came to this place where there was a lot of people dancing around this big fire
there were people from different tribes, like zhang4 zu3 , naxi zu and others
and they were doing their ming3 jian1 wu3 around the fire
then, our whole tour group actually joined in lah, it was so fun
cos everyone was trying to learn the steps mah, then laugh laugh laugh
we went to so many places already
the scenery here is so beautiful
really!
ahh i have to go now, can't really use the computer already.
i miss my friends in singapore!
somehow i wish they were here with me.
okay okay realy have to go le.
i'll try to get internet access another time haha
bye!
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Thursday, December 06, 2007 // 12:38 AM
hahaha i'm in the airport using the free internet access
i'm so bored, i still have about one more hour before boarding the plane
wow i posted three times today
oh yah i met shi ling(xms) at the airport
she is taking the same flight as me
what a coincidence.
my mother is in the toilet now, so i'm alone.
okay she is back.
and she is using the computer beside me
oh man, i have a sudden urge to dance.
i can't believe that i'm not dancing for three weeks.
thats ALOT you know.
even during the o'levels i don't not dance for three weeks
at most one week only.
oh yea, i may be going back to xmcd during the dec hols,
to see how the syf group are doing (:
i really miss dancing.
my sunburn is much better now
and my shoulders are itching and peeling
but i'm glad that its not so painful already.
i think i look tan.
i don't want to look tan.
and everyone is like asking me why i'm look so black all of a sudden
today i went out with limin and joey to watch fred claus
it was okay.
finally saw limin and joey after so long.
i'm glad limin had fun in korea,
i hope i will have fun in yunnan.
okay i think i'm going to walk around now.
goodbye (:
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Wednesday, December 05, 2007 // 11:09 PM
i'm leaving for the airport in about 15 mins .
i am seriously gonna miss all my friends.
i am gonna miss my home.
gonna miss dancing a lot.
i do hope i have fun there.
bye everyone.
see you in 9 days time (:
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// 9:44 AM
i'm leaving today!!!
but its at night haha
so i still have about one more day in singapore
i'm gonna meet limin and joey soon!!
so we'll see each other again before one of us leave
and this time, the person leaving is me hah
i'm halfway packing my things already
i shall finish packing after i come back later haha
abit lazy to pack already
and i realised that i won't be able to see nicole until next year ):
hmms i think i better leave now
bye!
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Tuesday, December 04, 2007 // 10:57 AM
i just realised that i'm flying off to yunnan tmr
and not thursday!
great, i haven't pack a single thing
and my mum is already done packing
but i shall start today
since i'm stuck at home with my terrible sunburn
at least i'm feeling better from my sunburn already
well, my flight is like 2.10 am in the morning
so i have to reach airport at around 12.10 midnight
i think i will just sleep through my flight hahah
i can't believe that i'm not gonna be dancing for three whole weeks!
i'm gonna get really stiff and fat
ebird says the class finished learning the whole daizu already,
and i barely know half ):
anyway i still don't really have much excitment that i'm leaving tmr
maybe cos i've been there once?
i did have a lot of fun last year when i went with xmcd
but i guess this year will be different
since its just me and my mum, and ofcourse the tour group
i really miss going overseas with my whole family,
but now everyone is so busy with their school timetable that our holidays don't meet
that reminds me, limin is coming back today
she is gonna be shocked at my red and black skin haha
did i mentioned that i borrowed books from the library?
hahha i borrowed! i'm so proud of myself
i actually allowed myself to step into the library hahs
i can't wait for nafa to resume next year
can't wait to attend TAT lessons when i come back
i hope dinghong laoshi won't kill me for missing three lessons in a row
i'm feeling bored at home!
i can't go out with wanling to ice skate today cos of my sunburn ):
i really hope my shoulders won't be so pain when i go yunnan
i hate sunburn.
i think i should start packing now
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Sunday, December 02, 2007 // 10:59 AM
i am so so so sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am missing three TAT practice in a row!!
thats three practice you know?!!?!??!?!
i didnt go last week cos of nafa,
this week cos of my stupid sunburnt that cause me to be in so much pain,
and next week cos i will be in yunnan
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
and the worse thing is,
the class is learning daizu
and i am so painfully staying at home ):
this is so bad
the last thing i'll ever want to do this holiday is to not go for dance lessons )):
and whats worse is that this teacher is sort of like a guest teacher that is specially trained in ming2 jian1 wu3
I AM SO SO SO SO SAD LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
i REALLY REALLY REALLY want to go for practice!!!
so stupid, i can't even dance now
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Saturday, December 01, 2007 // 10:52 AM
i'm seriously in extreme great pain.
this is the worst sunburnt i've ever had in my life!
the pain is killing me!!!
arghhhh
i can't even do anything properly
my shoulders hurt so much that i can't even tie my hair when i want to go to school
went to SL camp for a while
i haven't been sleeping for the whole night cos of night walk
and now i'm back home, but not intending to sleep
i feel so useless lah. i hate myself
i want to go to the library to borrow books later.
yes. its true. i am going to borrow books
i know i know. its surprising to see it coming out from me haha
but i want to bring some books to china next week to read
cos i guess i will be quite bored during the long hours of travelling
i'm starting to get sleepy
but i have to go out with ebird soon
and the sunburnt is really painful,
i dont even know if i'll survive. i guess not
please. just let me recover from it!
its totally spoiling my holiday mood
gah. i'm upset ):
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