Wednesday, January 18, 2012 // 12:59 AM
i wish we could have pei laoshi's technique class once a day even during the holidays.
i don't want to go back to zero and have to start again after two weeks of eating, sleeping and playing.
don't like feeling unfit :(
i feel like technique class is slowly picking up its pace in this winter term, and suddenly there is a two weeks break -.-
i'm glad to be back home for cny.
perfect timing for me to run away from all the crap thats happening in school.
am really tired from dealing with all the people, the gossips, the bias-ness..
is it that art-sy people have weird characters, maybe it's the people in hkapa, or is it just that this is the kind of environment that hong kongers grow up in.
why do people like to put others down so easily, what pleasure do you get in putting shame in other people, does that makes you feel superior to other people, does it really make you a better person?
studying here certainly trains my EQ more than IQ.
sometimes i really wonder if most of the people here really love to dance.
why can't i seem to take my mind off all these crap when i want to run away from it so much.
it's killing me
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Tuesday, January 10, 2012 // 11:11 PM
Happy wedding anniversary to mummy and daddy.
Love you so much <3
i wish school can be more taxing.
wish we have more to dance for dance 2.
can't help but to feel like we're really just the bunch of people that you can do without.
i like the movements though, its smooth, interesting and comfortable.
love contemp. i guess dancing contemp is one of the reasons that makes me wanna dance this so badly.
miss dancing dance.
technique classes is certainly getting more difficult
but i really do wish we could have 2 technique classes in one day.
i know it'll be tiring, but so worth it.
things haven't been quite smooth sailing these few days.
i don't want to feel like i'm right at the bottom again trying to climb my way up.
i wish i could really stop studying strife, and learn to live the unexamined life.
if only life can be as magical as musicals.
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Sunday, January 08, 2012 // 3:34 PM
Had an awesome weekend.
adventurous and tiring, but really worth every second of it.
Spending the weekend with the family and cousins in midst of the school term is somehow especially heartwarming.
perhaps its because school isn't going very desirable at the moment and i'm just good at running away.
anyway, thankful that this weekend allowed me to escape from reality for a moment where school can be thrown to the back of my head.
even for just 24 hours, i'm deeply grateful.
i'm so looking forward to chinese new year where we would all get together and have fun.
no gossips, no judging.
just plain sincere people.
everything is so simple when we're together. even happiness can be so simple.
school. friends. everything is falling apart.
bit by bit and i can't seem to be in control of anything.
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Tuesday, January 03, 2012 // 7:54 PM
i'm feeling unhappy.
just the first day of school and i feel like my heart has been stabbed so deep.
it's been like this for 4 freaking years. always in your shadows, always nowhere, also not belonging in every freaking group.
comforting myself has been such a routine i'm tired of it really.
i just so tired of it.
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