at this moment,
i'm thankful for the people in 08A03

thankful for the few
who started chatting in the canteen during break
who shared laughter and gossips

who made me feel that life is getting a little better in sajc

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ahh today i found out that i'm having maths bridging on 13 march!
which is the day of the laselle audition
and the time clashes as well..
i think i'll most likely just skip the bridging and go for the audition
but then, i'll need help with my maths!
someone please help me!!
i'm totally lost in maths...

and i'm having two econs test next week!
i'm gonna just drop dead lor
cos i don't understand the things taught
and the lecturer is going so fast.

i seriously need to do something constructive about my studies.

after school today,
went back to xinmin to see rose and junyi
had a fun time catching up!
i'm really thankful for having such great friends really.
hope we meet up again soon

a few days ago,
my mother called from hongkong
she told me she took the application form for the diploma course already
yayes!

and i'm comfirm missing two nafa rehearsals during the march holidays
due to bridging
so i'm only going for the other two
but at least the two that i'm attending are the more important ones,
with full run on sunday.

oh yea, got the timetable for next week already
at least its much better than the timetable for this week
and i'll be going home quite early for a few days
cca sign-up is next wednesday
i think i'm really gonna join dance already
but that is if i manage to pass the auditions
since i heard that its quite strict and difficult to get in.
but its worth a try anyway.

i can't help thinking about hkapa these few days...

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today we had our first day with our civics group
and we had to make friends all over again ahha
i wished i did go for pae in sajc
then i'll know more people.
so today, made new friends again
our civics tutor is so cute,
he is our history teacher also
but his lessons quite boring lah,
cos he keep talking and talking
wah so dry....

i think i'm gonna have a hard time doing history
there is so much to learn and know lah
i think i will go crazy lor

and today during maths bridging,
i sat beside the air purifier thing again
wah really suffocating man.
but getting used to it liao...

i think i've more or less decided to join dance
someone from my CG also wanna join
but i don't even know when is the audition
they didn't even announce.

oh man, i realise how much i miss dancing
i'm really not dancing much already
how can?
i just can't wait to go for dance classes to improve my technique

i wish i could just have rehearsals and techniqes classes everyday
from morning till late at night
then i'll go home feeling exhuasted, yet accomplished
and i'll have concerts every now and then
also, dance competitions where i'll meet great dancers from all over!

i miss performing a lot
i really really love to perform
although i know its quite difficult for me to be a performer
cos of my...ahems..height.
but i really want to be a performer.
i want to perform in a huge theatre with lots of people
and hopefully be able to touch people's heart
with my ability, with my passion
and then after years and years of experience onstage
i'll retire and be a dance teacher
teach in a professional arts school

and just....enjoy life with dance

ahh so nice!
seems so unrealistic
but i can have dreams, can't i? (:

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today i had a four hour break!
so long lah, i was almost bored to death
actually only three hour break
then wanted to go for history
but found out that the teacher was on mc
so had to wait another hour..
wah i think i spend more time on waiting than having lessons lor haha

anyway, today after school
the CG allocation was out
i'm in 08A03
and i'm in the same class as looyee!
but athalie is in a different class ):

after we checked the board,
we wanted to go home
then walk until halfway
we all felt like eating tau huay
so we ended up eating tau huay hahah

i'm still deciding what cca should i join..

today i know another two nyps ppl in sajc
and they recognise me!
there is really a lot of nyps ppl in sajc haha
one of them in also in the same class as me
wah, fate.

i want to go back xinmin
but i dunno when,
seems like everyone's timetable is very different
nevermind, shall work out smth.

don't understand why some people's timetable can end at 12+ or 1+
while mine ends at 3+ or 4+
hahaha
and rose! i could have gone to the same class as you
if i go to nyjc!
aiyoh but nevermind lah, hope you enjoy yourself there

i'm still thinking which cca i should join!
if sajc had chinese dance,
things will be much easier haha

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well today marks the first day
i went to sajc wearing the sajc uniform

the time table is really crazy man
i have so many breaks in between classes
but i think my friends are worse
cos they have like, 4 hours break in between lessons haha
and today, i finally felt like our OG is starting to get together
through all the talks and laughter during the 4 hour break

i was totally lost during math lecture today
i didn't understand a single thing
cos i didn't go for pae
and my poor friend beside me kept having to explain to me
oh man, i'm so dead lah
so many things to catch up

oh yah, i realise that sajc chicken rice very nice leh
so rose, its better than your nyjc one haha
you come sajc lah, then i can pei2 you eat chicken rice everyday
someone nicer chicken rice leh (:

athalie got crazy over the sajc school song
she kept singing it and singing it to everyone hahah!

during econs lecture today,
i was sitting right beside this air purifier
that is suppose to squirt some purfume thing into the air
every now and then
wah then everytime the thing squirt
the smell was so strong cos i was like beside it
and i was like suffocating throughout the whole econs lecture.
then my friend beside me was like saying
this is the sajc smell
cos when we came in on the first day of school
we went into the cultural centre first thing in the morning
and this was the smell haha

anyway, recently found out that nafa open class is next friday
so fast! its like i just started school
and its the holidays already.
but its good cos then i'll have time to catch up with my studies.

on another note,
two weeks ago elizabeth help me apply for laselle
and the auditions are in two weeks time
i don't even know if i can go for the audition ornot
i hope that i won't have any bridging programme on that day
even though the audition is ballet and comteporary based
i think it'll be quite interesting to go and try
laselle campus is just simply beautiful
and i guess it'll just be a new experience, 
gain new insights too.

and yes elizabeth,
i am my own harshest critic, so why do i base my faith in myself on others?
all along, i knew that i am the one who has the highest expectation of me
i think that is whats keeping me striving for more
but that is also the reason why i kept thinking that i'm never good enough
even so, i still try,
try to observe others and myself, try to improve.

i don't know why some people's opinion of my ability can affect me
but i think that from now on,
i'll just treat those remarks as spaces for improvement.

i'll really just try real hard these three months
cos i really want to go to hkapa
and if i don't get in in the end,
i won't have regrets, cos i know that i did the best that i could
sounds cliche, but i don't want to regret
cos i really have too many regrets in my life already.

no matter how difficult things will get in the future,
i'll still make sure that i'm enjoying myself while doing it
cos after all, i love to dance.

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my parents are off to hongkong today for one week
ahh i want to go also lah!
my mum said that if i was having holidays now
she would bring me there too.
this is so annoying
i wish i could just go to the airport
buy a ticket and fly there
right now.
oh wait, i'll grab elizabeth along with me
and then we shall go there and stay until 16 march
so we can go for hkapa's open house, yaye (:

but thats never gonna happen lah hahas.

anyway, today i went for dinghong laoshi's class alone
cos apparently, elizabeth and jiayin have dance camp
and agnes sprained her ankle
only a few people turned up today
but still, it was nice
i enjoy going for lessons at TAT

hmm, there is school tmr
so fast lah! the weekends just past in a flash.

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wow
new school, new environment, new people.
i don't know how to react really

i miss xinmin, i miss all my friends there
and when i talk to the few xinmin people in sajc
i feel a little comforting
to know that i still have a little of those i knew in sajc

the environment there is totally different
but i knew that beforehand already eh?
hahah

yesterday had lessons and talks already
but after school OG3 went for lunch!
although not all were able to make it
but it was nice.
played cards and some weird version of dai di

then we left and i went back to xinmin
hanged around with joey, limin and jocelyn
then joey, limin and me went to nafa tgt when we met ebird on the way
walked around and had dinner

had nafa rehearsal and graded class
zls talked to me before that
and she seriously knows how to make people feel guilty
i'm really sorry

i'm so confused over so many things lah

but i think i'll still take things one step at a time.
in school, and in dance.

i really wish i'll be in hongkong now
i've seriously thought about it
and i think i don't really stand a chance
its not that i have super low confidence
but its just that, i have to face the reality
even still, i really want to go for the auditions
i'll try very hard.

the worst thing is,
i'm deproving

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today is chinese valentines day!
haha

anyway had mass pe today
it was....haha not tiring at all
cos we didn't really do anything
just had an amazing race
but the thing is, we all just walk from place to place
never run, so it was like a walking and talking sesison haha

then we had disipline talk and mother tongue talk
quite boring lah...
but after that we went to submit our subject combinations
i chose to take
H2 maths econs history, and H1 physics
hahaha
i was deciding if i should take chinese or not
but my parents forced me to take chinese
so yeah, no choice, took chinese too

oh and i bought my uniform today!
the skirt is super long lah
must alter already
spent so much money on the uniform and pe

i ended at around 12.30 like that
then went to amk hub to meet rose
so sad junyi can't come cos she end school at around 4+
we went to watch ps.i love you
then had lunch too
i wish all of us were in the same school lah..
hais

and i have so many breaks tmr!
i am going to be so bored lor
end to 3+ somemore
but i think we are having OG lunch tmr

i'm like feeling so sleepy in school
i need more sleep!

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today is the first day of school!

went to school and was a stranger to everything lah
so i just checked which OG group i'm in then go sit in the cultural centre liao
but luckily, when i went to OG3 and sat down
the girl sitting beside me was really friendly
yup, so it made me feel better
her name is athalie.

then we had ice breakers
some ppl in my group are really enthu lah ahhaha

wah i  see quite a number of nyps ppl in sajc
like in my OG already got 2 person from nyps
same class summore
so its like really nice to see your friends after 4 years ahhah

well learnt the college song and college hymn
both songs were nice!
i kinda like the song and the hymn (:

then had a really long subject combination talk
i was like half dead by then already
cos its quite boring lah..then a lot of people were sleeping haha

after that, the saintsational race!
aiyoh it was okay only lah.
like amazing race like that.

and i can remember everyone's name in OG3!
hahah we have like 31 ppl.
hmm tmr got pe!
oh my goodness i think i'll die.

so yea we learnt mass dance too
the dances were really fun, and funny ahhaha
its like couple dance like that
had quite a good time learning and dancing them

but towards the end of the day,
the whole jc1 like go crazy liao
all so high!
cos there was like a rock band "concert" thing
then everyone was like jumping around
running around, screaming, singing!
all go crazy lah!

throughout the day,
i was hoping that my friends were there with me.
i really miss them
and i want to be in the same school together
i think i will go crazy during the rock band if i was with my friends haha
but anyway, i haven't quite adpat yet,
i hope i will soon, okay i better be

ahh, a rather tiring day
i need more sleep

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i got posted to SAJC!
yay!
school starts tmr
i'm actually looking forward to it
yet at the same time worried and anxious
because i really don't know whats in store for me
but i kept telling myself that it'll be great
well i hope it'll be though

i just wish my friends were with me.
it seems that we are in different schools now.
i guess it is just time to move on
i can't be in the same class as my friends forever eh?
but i'll never forget them
every single moment we shared was simply wonderful

all the best to everyone in your schools!
its another beggining, strive hard and make this year another fruitful one (:

dinner time! (:

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yay today was a fun day!

went out during the afternoon with elizabeth
we went to hokkein huay guan to try out their dance lesson
we were like trying to find the place lah
and in the end we found it and realised that we were too early haha
so we just roamed around a little

and when the class starts
it was fun!
the teacher is so nice, he is very patient too
and the class was so bubbly
the atmosphere was so relaxing
its really different from many of the dance classes that i went to
it was a technique class so i think i'm gonna ache tmr lah
but i enjoyed the class (:

after that went down to bugis for 405 class gathering
rose bluff me!! she say she is going, in the end she nvr come!!!!
lougong! you pao1 qi4 me!
we went to fish&co to eat
and junyi managed to rush down to join us (:
we too quite some time to settle the bill, keep counting and counting

but after that it was super fun!!
we went to the corridor at the back of fish&co
and we started playing loads and loads of bonding games!
it was hilarious lah!!
laugh until super crazy!
everyone was also very enthusiastic
i really had a fun time playing with them
love my classmates a lot!

today was a fun day
enjoyed myself (:

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went to school today and heard the school song!
its okay lah
quite nice actually haha

but anyway helped out with the junior's performance
they did great
so kudos to them (:

after that we sat this really really really longggg bus ride to bugis
and in the end we were late for nafa rehearsal
haha cos i thought it was 7pm start, but actually its 6.45pm start
hmm and as i predicted,
rehearsal was all slacky and i didn't think we accomplish much
but at least it refreshed our memories a little

later on, we had graded classes
it was super fustrating for me.
i guess i shouldn't even have mention anything about hkapa to you.
i mean, i can tell what you are trying to do
i'm quite smart actually you know, i'm not like meng2 zai4 hu2 li3
because its like a sudden change in attitude towards me
and i think the more you say, the more i'll try, i'll try even harder
i know you've made it clear to me that you are not supportive,
but i'm still going to go for it.
even if i didn't make it in the end, i'll still be glad that i went ahead with it.

i'm sorry, i know its for my own good.
but please, what i really need now is encouragement.

ahh i'm pretty much upset now.
i just hope school starts soon
so i can study and stop thinking about all these...

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happy valentines day!

this year, i spent my valentines day at home
its not that bad actually
but i've been sneezing the whole day
kinda bad having to fall sick during this period of time.

but i did learn half of my part for teng zhi ye
at least it was a fruitful day
oh and my inner thighs were aching this morning
so i was like walking like a duck ahha

but anyway, i realised that i kind of like staying at home.
so its not so bad after all that i didn't go for pae.
and i think i really want to get in sajc,
i'll be a little disappointed if i didn't make it.
but oh well,
i'll know it next tuesday.

there is nafa tmr.
and there is rehearsal for nov concert before graded class
i hope rehearsal will be good
although i have a feeling it wont be.
but at least we'll get to do sui yue ru ge (:

oh yes and i'll be reaching xinmin before flag raising tmr
and i want to hear the school song
haven't heard it yet haha

i think the songs of some dances really melts my heart when i hear it
"mei ah li" is one of those
there are a few other dances too
but currently i really feel like listening to "mei ah li"
its a korean dance.
ngee ann poly is doing this dance for their concert too.
i really like the song 
the dance is nice too

here is the video of the dance (:


 

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happy birthday everyone!
today is ren2 ri4

one week till i start school!
quite looking forward to it (:

today went back to xinmin at around 12
supposed to practise yuhun but in the end
we waited for the key for so long
and we ended up doing random dance stuffs in the dance room
its nice having the whole dance room to yourself eh
especially with ebird, cos she is never afraid of trying new stuffs

well so we stayed until the juniors had lessons
talked with zls
and she said that she is not supportive of me going hk
well its kind of sad lah
but i'm still not changing my mind
i mean i just want to try out for the auditions
cannot meh?
just cos i won't be able to perform for november concert if i get into hkapa
doesn't mean that i have to give up auditioning what.

anyway, i just want to try.
if not i guess i'll regret.
but even though i do not totally like zls point of view towards certain things
i still like and respect her as my teacher.

and we decided that we won't be doing yuhun anymore
instead we are doing teng zhi ye!
yay i'm kind of happy about it
although its much easier
but i think i'll enjoy doing it more than yuhun
thats the important thing (:
i'm so hyped up about learning teng zhi ye already lah!
can't wait to finish learning it hehes

oh and i may be going to hokkein huay guan
to try out their chinese dance this saturday.
hope that it will be nice
and that they will acept me
*crosses fingers*

everything is so different in xmcd
i'm not sure if its for the better or for the worst.
but i really do miss the feeling i have in xmcd in the past.
thats a feeling that i'll not forget.

on a happy note,
i'll be dancing again this week! ((:

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so today i went to ajc
with junyi and rose

hahah
but we only attended two lectures for the whole day
and we spent the rest of the time in the canteen
doing a lot of stupid things with nicholas also
lectures were pretty boring
so we just kept passing messages and drawing stupid things

after that went to amk hub to eat tgt
with naima, jasmine, nich and the three of us
wah after lunch waited around for quite long
then i think everyone started being super lame cos it was quite sian

but junyi,
it is good that everything is fine now
hope you feel better (:


i realised that i have one more week before i start school
don't know whether to say it is fast or slow
but i'm looking forward to starting school
it was a really really really long break for me.
but i guess this break really gave me a break.
i thought about a lot of things,
haha maybe i thought about too many things
and ended up making myself worried for nothing

but i realised even more how important my friends are to me.
really wanna cherish this last week to be able to be with them
cos when school starts and we end up in different schools,
everyone will be so caught up with their lives
this will be the last week we can take things easy

i'm seriously super lucky to have met so many of my friends
really love them a lot and i just hope to spend more time with them.

i'm really really glad that i came to xinmin.
simply the best four years of my school life so far.
those were good old days...

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back from malaysia today

so on wednesday it was cny eve
had opera performance in the morning
we met up in the institute and did our make up
and there is only the five of us
so we sat cai bo shi's car to tampines sec to perform
the whole performance was super rush
i'm glad its over.

after that i went back to xinmin
met up with so many people
and we talked and talked. it was nice (:
decided to go to naima's house aft that with junyi and rose
naima's mum cooked nice food for us
and she was really really nice lah!
kept giving us food and everything

and on the day of new year
we left the house at 5am to drive to malaysia

malaysia was really really fun!
love everything about it
the people were great
the food was good
i really love my cousins a lot
a great bunch of people
enjoyed the rock climbing
enjoyed the bowling
enjoyed the playing together

i think no matter what we do
as long as we are together
anything can be just great

this chinese new year was another enjoyable year

and i don't know why but
i feel like going to hongkong even more now.
hkapa's aplication period is coming out soon!

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officially two more weeks before i prepare myself for school

opera performance is tmr
seriously can't wait for it to be over
i need to reach the institute at 6.30am!
that is super super early
i don't even know how i'm going to get there
but i'll finish at 10am!
can't wait for 10am to come!

anyway, did abit of cleaning up at home today
cny is coming!
dunno if i'm looking forward to it ornot, hahah.

my parents are going to hongkong on the 24th!
and my mum is asking if i want her to help me
hand in my portfolio for hkapa.
elizabeth you want?
but i don't even think that i'll be able to get reference letters
in such a short period of time.

haha, i guess i'm starting to look more forward to going malaysia liao!
can see my cousins
can play with them, and catch up a bit.
but i'm sure i will be bombared with questions about my results
ahh nvrmind lah.

i'm feeling so troubled lately..

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sometimes some people's words can just make me feel so uneasy
i do not like it at all

today's rehearsal at opera institute was bad for me
i'm hoping wednesday will pass faster
and i'll just get this over and done with

after that i went back to nyjc to meet up with the rest
and we decided to go back to xms
cos junyi wanted to help out with the jaguar board
so in the end the rest of us just sat around doing nothing
it was sian, yet fun
cos people do the weirdest things when they are bored
then rose came later on
we went to eat and went home

i don't know why
but i suddenly feel like going to malaysia now
although the squeezing at the back of the car kind of turns me off
but i don't want to be here right now

so many things on my mind
i just want to get them off.

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so, another week is gone
i'm gonna start school in about 2 weeks
i guess i'm kinda looking forward to it
since i've been rotting for so long

anyway was trying to memorize the script for tmr's rehearsal
and although its not a lot
but my brain very long nvr function liao
then now want to memorize abit weird lah.
somemore there is one singing part leh
the tune is like so unheard of, how to remember??
i think i can remember everything
but i have a bad feeling that i will forget everything when i'm there
argh.

but today's dance practise at TAT was nice!
the weather was nice to train in
cos it was raining outside
and the feeling in the dance room was cooling and nice
dinghong laoshi and the others were great as usual
i like the feeling of practising there
but i found out that there is no practise next week ):

and,
all the best to elizabeth for her exam tmr!
you can do it!
MARKETING IS THE BEST! (:

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today was fun with limin and joey!
hahaha

early in the morning i took one whole stack of newspapers to limin house
then we went to school and donate the newspapers to her class
haha i'm so nice lah, help limin's class

then waited for joey and we took bus down to chinese opera institute
to help out with the photoshoot
the bus took forever lah
hahah when we reached we realise the timing was postpone,
so we went to bugis junction to eat

when we finally made it to the opera institute after that
it was like 4pm le
then the juniors went to put make-up for their photoshoot
heard that they are doing some indian drama thing
then the seniors just sat aside and talk,
and help whenever we could

after that i was told that the opera institute needed ppl
to act in their performance nxt wednesday
then they asked me to help them.
so it means that i have to go down on monday to rehearse
and the performance is on wednesday
oh, and i'm gonna be acting two roles
but they are minor roles lah
i'm like an extra lor, hahah

i dont really mind,
but the thing is,
i want to go to nyjc on monday!!!
and i want to go back to xinmin on wednesday!!!!
and now i can't loh

i feel so sorry to so many ppl
cos i can't to go to nyjc on monday
but i hope i can go back to xinmin after the wednesday performance
cos the performance is in the morning mah
then can rush down to xinmin

hmm or maybe after monday's rehearsal i can go to nyjc
and meet up with the others (:

i think i'm gonna feel so weird
when i go down for rehearsal or performance
cos i don't even know anyone there

anyway after that,
we went to joey's house for dinner
it was great!
going out with joey and limin is always very fun!
and joey's mother was so nice
because she kept giving us food
and she even sent us to our doorstep leh!
somemore the three of us live quite far from each other
i'm so thankful lah! hhaha

i found today enjoyable
thanks to my wonderful friends (:

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at this moment,
i'm thankful for the people in 08A03

thankful for the few
who started chatting in the canteen during break
who shared laughter and gossips

who made me feel that life is getting a little better in sajc
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ahh today i found out that i'm having maths bridging on 13 march!
which is the day of the laselle audition
and the time clashes as well..
i think i'll most likely just skip the bridging and go for the audition
but then, i'll need help with my maths!
someone please help me!!
i'm totally lost in maths...

and i'm having two econs test next week!
i'm gonna just drop dead lor
cos i don't understand the things taught
and the lecturer is going so fast.

i seriously need to do something constructive about my studies.

after school today,
went back to xinmin to see rose and junyi
had a fun time catching up!
i'm really thankful for having such great friends really.
hope we meet up again soon

a few days ago,
my mother called from hongkong
she told me she took the application form for the diploma course already
yayes!

and i'm comfirm missing two nafa rehearsals during the march holidays
due to bridging
so i'm only going for the other two
but at least the two that i'm attending are the more important ones,
with full run on sunday.

oh yea, got the timetable for next week already
at least its much better than the timetable for this week
and i'll be going home quite early for a few days
cca sign-up is next wednesday
i think i'm really gonna join dance already
but that is if i manage to pass the auditions
since i heard that its quite strict and difficult to get in.
but its worth a try anyway.

i can't help thinking about hkapa these few days...
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today we had our first day with our civics group
and we had to make friends all over again ahha
i wished i did go for pae in sajc
then i'll know more people.
so today, made new friends again
our civics tutor is so cute,
he is our history teacher also
but his lessons quite boring lah,
cos he keep talking and talking
wah so dry....

i think i'm gonna have a hard time doing history
there is so much to learn and know lah
i think i will go crazy lor

and today during maths bridging,
i sat beside the air purifier thing again
wah really suffocating man.
but getting used to it liao...

i think i've more or less decided to join dance
someone from my CG also wanna join
but i don't even know when is the audition
they didn't even announce.

oh man, i realise how much i miss dancing
i'm really not dancing much already
how can?
i just can't wait to go for dance classes to improve my technique

i wish i could just have rehearsals and techniqes classes everyday
from morning till late at night
then i'll go home feeling exhuasted, yet accomplished
and i'll have concerts every now and then
also, dance competitions where i'll meet great dancers from all over!

i miss performing a lot
i really really love to perform
although i know its quite difficult for me to be a performer
cos of my...ahems..height.
but i really want to be a performer.
i want to perform in a huge theatre with lots of people
and hopefully be able to touch people's heart
with my ability, with my passion
and then after years and years of experience onstage
i'll retire and be a dance teacher
teach in a professional arts school

and just....enjoy life with dance

ahh so nice!
seems so unrealistic
but i can have dreams, can't i? (:
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today i had a four hour break!
so long lah, i was almost bored to death
actually only three hour break
then wanted to go for history
but found out that the teacher was on mc
so had to wait another hour..
wah i think i spend more time on waiting than having lessons lor haha

anyway, today after school
the CG allocation was out
i'm in 08A03
and i'm in the same class as looyee!
but athalie is in a different class ):

after we checked the board,
we wanted to go home
then walk until halfway
we all felt like eating tau huay
so we ended up eating tau huay hahah

i'm still deciding what cca should i join..

today i know another two nyps ppl in sajc
and they recognise me!
there is really a lot of nyps ppl in sajc haha
one of them in also in the same class as me
wah, fate.

i want to go back xinmin
but i dunno when,
seems like everyone's timetable is very different
nevermind, shall work out smth.

don't understand why some people's timetable can end at 12+ or 1+
while mine ends at 3+ or 4+
hahaha
and rose! i could have gone to the same class as you
if i go to nyjc!
aiyoh but nevermind lah, hope you enjoy yourself there

i'm still thinking which cca i should join!
if sajc had chinese dance,
things will be much easier haha
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well today marks the first day
i went to sajc wearing the sajc uniform

the time table is really crazy man
i have so many breaks in between classes
but i think my friends are worse
cos they have like, 4 hours break in between lessons haha
and today, i finally felt like our OG is starting to get together
through all the talks and laughter during the 4 hour break

i was totally lost during math lecture today
i didn't understand a single thing
cos i didn't go for pae
and my poor friend beside me kept having to explain to me
oh man, i'm so dead lah
so many things to catch up

oh yah, i realise that sajc chicken rice very nice leh
so rose, its better than your nyjc one haha
you come sajc lah, then i can pei2 you eat chicken rice everyday
someone nicer chicken rice leh (:

athalie got crazy over the sajc school song
she kept singing it and singing it to everyone hahah!

during econs lecture today,
i was sitting right beside this air purifier
that is suppose to squirt some purfume thing into the air
every now and then
wah then everytime the thing squirt
the smell was so strong cos i was like beside it
and i was like suffocating throughout the whole econs lecture.
then my friend beside me was like saying
this is the sajc smell
cos when we came in on the first day of school
we went into the cultural centre first thing in the morning
and this was the smell haha

anyway, recently found out that nafa open class is next friday
so fast! its like i just started school
and its the holidays already.
but its good cos then i'll have time to catch up with my studies.

on another note,
two weeks ago elizabeth help me apply for laselle
and the auditions are in two weeks time
i don't even know if i can go for the audition ornot
i hope that i won't have any bridging programme on that day
even though the audition is ballet and comteporary based
i think it'll be quite interesting to go and try
laselle campus is just simply beautiful
and i guess it'll just be a new experience, 
gain new insights too.

and yes elizabeth,
i am my own harshest critic, so why do i base my faith in myself on others?
all along, i knew that i am the one who has the highest expectation of me
i think that is whats keeping me striving for more
but that is also the reason why i kept thinking that i'm never good enough
even so, i still try,
try to observe others and myself, try to improve.

i don't know why some people's opinion of my ability can affect me
but i think that from now on,
i'll just treat those remarks as spaces for improvement.

i'll really just try real hard these three months
cos i really want to go to hkapa
and if i don't get in in the end,
i won't have regrets, cos i know that i did the best that i could
sounds cliche, but i don't want to regret
cos i really have too many regrets in my life already.

no matter how difficult things will get in the future,
i'll still make sure that i'm enjoying myself while doing it
cos after all, i love to dance.
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my parents are off to hongkong today for one week
ahh i want to go also lah!
my mum said that if i was having holidays now
she would bring me there too.
this is so annoying
i wish i could just go to the airport
buy a ticket and fly there
right now.
oh wait, i'll grab elizabeth along with me
and then we shall go there and stay until 16 march
so we can go for hkapa's open house, yaye (:

but thats never gonna happen lah hahas.

anyway, today i went for dinghong laoshi's class alone
cos apparently, elizabeth and jiayin have dance camp
and agnes sprained her ankle
only a few people turned up today
but still, it was nice
i enjoy going for lessons at TAT

hmm, there is school tmr
so fast lah! the weekends just past in a flash.
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wow
new school, new environment, new people.
i don't know how to react really

i miss xinmin, i miss all my friends there
and when i talk to the few xinmin people in sajc
i feel a little comforting
to know that i still have a little of those i knew in sajc

the environment there is totally different
but i knew that beforehand already eh?
hahah

yesterday had lessons and talks already
but after school OG3 went for lunch!
although not all were able to make it
but it was nice.
played cards and some weird version of dai di

then we left and i went back to xinmin
hanged around with joey, limin and jocelyn
then joey, limin and me went to nafa tgt when we met ebird on the way
walked around and had dinner

had nafa rehearsal and graded class
zls talked to me before that
and she seriously knows how to make people feel guilty
i'm really sorry

i'm so confused over so many things lah

but i think i'll still take things one step at a time.
in school, and in dance.

i really wish i'll be in hongkong now
i've seriously thought about it
and i think i don't really stand a chance
its not that i have super low confidence
but its just that, i have to face the reality
even still, i really want to go for the auditions
i'll try very hard.

the worst thing is,
i'm deproving
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today is chinese valentines day!
haha

anyway had mass pe today
it was....haha not tiring at all
cos we didn't really do anything
just had an amazing race
but the thing is, we all just walk from place to place
never run, so it was like a walking and talking sesison haha

then we had disipline talk and mother tongue talk
quite boring lah...
but after that we went to submit our subject combinations
i chose to take
H2 maths econs history, and H1 physics
hahaha
i was deciding if i should take chinese or not
but my parents forced me to take chinese
so yeah, no choice, took chinese too

oh and i bought my uniform today!
the skirt is super long lah
must alter already
spent so much money on the uniform and pe

i ended at around 12.30 like that
then went to amk hub to meet rose
so sad junyi can't come cos she end school at around 4+
we went to watch ps.i love you
then had lunch too
i wish all of us were in the same school lah..
hais

and i have so many breaks tmr!
i am going to be so bored lor
end to 3+ somemore
but i think we are having OG lunch tmr

i'm like feeling so sleepy in school
i need more sleep!
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today is the first day of school!

went to school and was a stranger to everything lah
so i just checked which OG group i'm in then go sit in the cultural centre liao
but luckily, when i went to OG3 and sat down
the girl sitting beside me was really friendly
yup, so it made me feel better
her name is athalie.

then we had ice breakers
some ppl in my group are really enthu lah ahhaha

wah i  see quite a number of nyps ppl in sajc
like in my OG already got 2 person from nyps
same class summore
so its like really nice to see your friends after 4 years ahhah

well learnt the college song and college hymn
both songs were nice!
i kinda like the song and the hymn (:

then had a really long subject combination talk
i was like half dead by then already
cos its quite boring lah..then a lot of people were sleeping haha

after that, the saintsational race!
aiyoh it was okay only lah.
like amazing race like that.

and i can remember everyone's name in OG3!
hahah we have like 31 ppl.
hmm tmr got pe!
oh my goodness i think i'll die.

so yea we learnt mass dance too
the dances were really fun, and funny ahhaha
its like couple dance like that
had quite a good time learning and dancing them

but towards the end of the day,
the whole jc1 like go crazy liao
all so high!
cos there was like a rock band "concert" thing
then everyone was like jumping around
running around, screaming, singing!
all go crazy lah!

throughout the day,
i was hoping that my friends were there with me.
i really miss them
and i want to be in the same school together
i think i will go crazy during the rock band if i was with my friends haha
but anyway, i haven't quite adpat yet,
i hope i will soon, okay i better be

ahh, a rather tiring day
i need more sleep
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i got posted to SAJC!
yay!
school starts tmr
i'm actually looking forward to it
yet at the same time worried and anxious
because i really don't know whats in store for me
but i kept telling myself that it'll be great
well i hope it'll be though

i just wish my friends were with me.
it seems that we are in different schools now.
i guess it is just time to move on
i can't be in the same class as my friends forever eh?
but i'll never forget them
every single moment we shared was simply wonderful

all the best to everyone in your schools!
its another beggining, strive hard and make this year another fruitful one (:

dinner time! (:
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yay today was a fun day!

went out during the afternoon with elizabeth
we went to hokkein huay guan to try out their dance lesson
we were like trying to find the place lah
and in the end we found it and realised that we were too early haha
so we just roamed around a little

and when the class starts
it was fun!
the teacher is so nice, he is very patient too
and the class was so bubbly
the atmosphere was so relaxing
its really different from many of the dance classes that i went to
it was a technique class so i think i'm gonna ache tmr lah
but i enjoyed the class (:

after that went down to bugis for 405 class gathering
rose bluff me!! she say she is going, in the end she nvr come!!!!
lougong! you pao1 qi4 me!
we went to fish&co to eat
and junyi managed to rush down to join us (:
we too quite some time to settle the bill, keep counting and counting

but after that it was super fun!!
we went to the corridor at the back of fish&co
and we started playing loads and loads of bonding games!
it was hilarious lah!!
laugh until super crazy!
everyone was also very enthusiastic
i really had a fun time playing with them
love my classmates a lot!

today was a fun day
enjoyed myself (:
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went to school today and heard the school song!
its okay lah
quite nice actually haha

but anyway helped out with the junior's performance
they did great
so kudos to them (:

after that we sat this really really really longggg bus ride to bugis
and in the end we were late for nafa rehearsal
haha cos i thought it was 7pm start, but actually its 6.45pm start
hmm and as i predicted,
rehearsal was all slacky and i didn't think we accomplish much
but at least it refreshed our memories a little

later on, we had graded classes
it was super fustrating for me.
i guess i shouldn't even have mention anything about hkapa to you.
i mean, i can tell what you are trying to do
i'm quite smart actually you know, i'm not like meng2 zai4 hu2 li3
because its like a sudden change in attitude towards me
and i think the more you say, the more i'll try, i'll try even harder
i know you've made it clear to me that you are not supportive,
but i'm still going to go for it.
even if i didn't make it in the end, i'll still be glad that i went ahead with it.

i'm sorry, i know its for my own good.
but please, what i really need now is encouragement.

ahh i'm pretty much upset now.
i just hope school starts soon
so i can study and stop thinking about all these...
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happy valentines day!

this year, i spent my valentines day at home
its not that bad actually
but i've been sneezing the whole day
kinda bad having to fall sick during this period of time.

but i did learn half of my part for teng zhi ye
at least it was a fruitful day
oh and my inner thighs were aching this morning
so i was like walking like a duck ahha

but anyway, i realised that i kind of like staying at home.
so its not so bad after all that i didn't go for pae.
and i think i really want to get in sajc,
i'll be a little disappointed if i didn't make it.
but oh well,
i'll know it next tuesday.

there is nafa tmr.
and there is rehearsal for nov concert before graded class
i hope rehearsal will be good
although i have a feeling it wont be.
but at least we'll get to do sui yue ru ge (:

oh yes and i'll be reaching xinmin before flag raising tmr
and i want to hear the school song
haven't heard it yet haha

i think the songs of some dances really melts my heart when i hear it
"mei ah li" is one of those
there are a few other dances too
but currently i really feel like listening to "mei ah li"
its a korean dance.
ngee ann poly is doing this dance for their concert too.
i really like the song 
the dance is nice too

here is the video of the dance (:


 
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happy birthday everyone!
today is ren2 ri4

one week till i start school!
quite looking forward to it (:

today went back to xinmin at around 12
supposed to practise yuhun but in the end
we waited for the key for so long
and we ended up doing random dance stuffs in the dance room
its nice having the whole dance room to yourself eh
especially with ebird, cos she is never afraid of trying new stuffs

well so we stayed until the juniors had lessons
talked with zls
and she said that she is not supportive of me going hk
well its kind of sad lah
but i'm still not changing my mind
i mean i just want to try out for the auditions
cannot meh?
just cos i won't be able to perform for november concert if i get into hkapa
doesn't mean that i have to give up auditioning what.

anyway, i just want to try.
if not i guess i'll regret.
but even though i do not totally like zls point of view towards certain things
i still like and respect her as my teacher.

and we decided that we won't be doing yuhun anymore
instead we are doing teng zhi ye!
yay i'm kind of happy about it
although its much easier
but i think i'll enjoy doing it more than yuhun
thats the important thing (:
i'm so hyped up about learning teng zhi ye already lah!
can't wait to finish learning it hehes

oh and i may be going to hokkein huay guan
to try out their chinese dance this saturday.
hope that it will be nice
and that they will acept me
*crosses fingers*

everything is so different in xmcd
i'm not sure if its for the better or for the worst.
but i really do miss the feeling i have in xmcd in the past.
thats a feeling that i'll not forget.

on a happy note,
i'll be dancing again this week! ((:
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so today i went to ajc
with junyi and rose

hahah
but we only attended two lectures for the whole day
and we spent the rest of the time in the canteen
doing a lot of stupid things with nicholas also
lectures were pretty boring
so we just kept passing messages and drawing stupid things

after that went to amk hub to eat tgt
with naima, jasmine, nich and the three of us
wah after lunch waited around for quite long
then i think everyone started being super lame cos it was quite sian

but junyi,
it is good that everything is fine now
hope you feel better (:


i realised that i have one more week before i start school
don't know whether to say it is fast or slow
but i'm looking forward to starting school
it was a really really really long break for me.
but i guess this break really gave me a break.
i thought about a lot of things,
haha maybe i thought about too many things
and ended up making myself worried for nothing

but i realised even more how important my friends are to me.
really wanna cherish this last week to be able to be with them
cos when school starts and we end up in different schools,
everyone will be so caught up with their lives
this will be the last week we can take things easy

i'm seriously super lucky to have met so many of my friends
really love them a lot and i just hope to spend more time with them.

i'm really really glad that i came to xinmin.
simply the best four years of my school life so far.
those were good old days...
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back from malaysia today

so on wednesday it was cny eve
had opera performance in the morning
we met up in the institute and did our make up
and there is only the five of us
so we sat cai bo shi's car to tampines sec to perform
the whole performance was super rush
i'm glad its over.

after that i went back to xinmin
met up with so many people
and we talked and talked. it was nice (:
decided to go to naima's house aft that with junyi and rose
naima's mum cooked nice food for us
and she was really really nice lah!
kept giving us food and everything

and on the day of new year
we left the house at 5am to drive to malaysia

malaysia was really really fun!
love everything about it
the people were great
the food was good
i really love my cousins a lot
a great bunch of people
enjoyed the rock climbing
enjoyed the bowling
enjoyed the playing together

i think no matter what we do
as long as we are together
anything can be just great

this chinese new year was another enjoyable year

and i don't know why but
i feel like going to hongkong even more now.
hkapa's aplication period is coming out soon!
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officially two more weeks before i prepare myself for school

opera performance is tmr
seriously can't wait for it to be over
i need to reach the institute at 6.30am!
that is super super early
i don't even know how i'm going to get there
but i'll finish at 10am!
can't wait for 10am to come!

anyway, did abit of cleaning up at home today
cny is coming!
dunno if i'm looking forward to it ornot, hahah.

my parents are going to hongkong on the 24th!
and my mum is asking if i want her to help me
hand in my portfolio for hkapa.
elizabeth you want?
but i don't even think that i'll be able to get reference letters
in such a short period of time.

haha, i guess i'm starting to look more forward to going malaysia liao!
can see my cousins
can play with them, and catch up a bit.
but i'm sure i will be bombared with questions about my results
ahh nvrmind lah.

i'm feeling so troubled lately..
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sometimes some people's words can just make me feel so uneasy
i do not like it at all

today's rehearsal at opera institute was bad for me
i'm hoping wednesday will pass faster
and i'll just get this over and done with

after that i went back to nyjc to meet up with the rest
and we decided to go back to xms
cos junyi wanted to help out with the jaguar board
so in the end the rest of us just sat around doing nothing
it was sian, yet fun
cos people do the weirdest things when they are bored
then rose came later on
we went to eat and went home

i don't know why
but i suddenly feel like going to malaysia now
although the squeezing at the back of the car kind of turns me off
but i don't want to be here right now

so many things on my mind
i just want to get them off.
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so, another week is gone
i'm gonna start school in about 2 weeks
i guess i'm kinda looking forward to it
since i've been rotting for so long

anyway was trying to memorize the script for tmr's rehearsal
and although its not a lot
but my brain very long nvr function liao
then now want to memorize abit weird lah.
somemore there is one singing part leh
the tune is like so unheard of, how to remember??
i think i can remember everything
but i have a bad feeling that i will forget everything when i'm there
argh.

but today's dance practise at TAT was nice!
the weather was nice to train in
cos it was raining outside
and the feeling in the dance room was cooling and nice
dinghong laoshi and the others were great as usual
i like the feeling of practising there
but i found out that there is no practise next week ):

and,
all the best to elizabeth for her exam tmr!
you can do it!
MARKETING IS THE BEST! (:
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today was fun with limin and joey!
hahaha

early in the morning i took one whole stack of newspapers to limin house
then we went to school and donate the newspapers to her class
haha i'm so nice lah, help limin's class

then waited for joey and we took bus down to chinese opera institute
to help out with the photoshoot
the bus took forever lah
hahah when we reached we realise the timing was postpone,
so we went to bugis junction to eat

when we finally made it to the opera institute after that
it was like 4pm le
then the juniors went to put make-up for their photoshoot
heard that they are doing some indian drama thing
then the seniors just sat aside and talk,
and help whenever we could

after that i was told that the opera institute needed ppl
to act in their performance nxt wednesday
then they asked me to help them.
so it means that i have to go down on monday to rehearse
and the performance is on wednesday
oh, and i'm gonna be acting two roles
but they are minor roles lah
i'm like an extra lor, hahah

i dont really mind,
but the thing is,
i want to go to nyjc on monday!!!
and i want to go back to xinmin on wednesday!!!!
and now i can't loh

i feel so sorry to so many ppl
cos i can't to go to nyjc on monday
but i hope i can go back to xinmin after the wednesday performance
cos the performance is in the morning mah
then can rush down to xinmin

hmm or maybe after monday's rehearsal i can go to nyjc
and meet up with the others (:

i think i'm gonna feel so weird
when i go down for rehearsal or performance
cos i don't even know anyone there

anyway after that,
we went to joey's house for dinner
it was great!
going out with joey and limin is always very fun!
and joey's mother was so nice
because she kept giving us food
and she even sent us to our doorstep leh!
somemore the three of us live quite far from each other
i'm so thankful lah! hhaha

i found today enjoyable
thanks to my wonderful friends (:
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Ruimin. 15 May. Dancer. The HongKong Academy for Performing Arts

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