Sunday, December 30, 2007 // 9:49 PM
wow i haven't been blogging for super long hhahah
christmas was great with my cousins
had a lot of fun
hmm, went back to xmcd to see see
it was super fun with ebird, limin and joey hahah
the new dances that they are going to learn for the concert are nice
oh and me and ebird are allowed to put up one item in next year's concert
yayes! we've already chosen the dance, i can't wait to start learning it hehehs
and i realised that the TAT dance lessons that i've been going on sundays
are not really under TAT (theatre arts troupe)
but rather HongLei dance company haha
today, Dinghong laoshi couldn't make it for class
so Zhoulei laoshi took over.
and i had my first lesson with Zhoulei laoshi.
he is a very strict teacher, his high expectations gave me much pressure
and today he told us a lot of things about professional trainings and going professional
i guess after the class i was just quite dissapointed with myself
and seriously i don't even know if i will ever fufill my dream or not.
i know i'm not good enough yet.
but i hope i will be good enough soon.
i will work hard
actually i'm lucky to have good dance teachers.
but that aside, the more important thing lies in myself
i can only rely on myself to improve and work hard
my teachers are just there to point out my mistakes
and i'm the one who needs to practise extra hard to get it right.
sometimes i'm just so fustrated with myself.
fustrated with how timid i am,
fustrated with how i lack self confidence
fustrated with the amount of self disipline i have.
i guess i need to learn to dare to make mistakes
because i want to learn more
i want to be better.
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