Tuesday, August 12, 2008 // 9:21 PM
i finally started packing up my things.
cos it finally struck me that time is running out real soon.
my room is still in a huge mess though cos i didn't really clear up much.
should i throw away my sajc worksheets? still don't know leh...
went to collect my medical report today
it was alright, and the doctor said that i am physically fit to study in the academy.
then went to xinmin.
initially i thought that i was going alone cos no one else could make it
and i was actually quite scared about going back alone, cos even though i've been back so many times, i still feel like an outsider, i don't even fit in xmcd anymore, everything is so strange to me.
but still i want to go back, cos ultimately i still have feelings for xmcd, i want to be back at that dance studio that provided me with so many wonderful memories, so i just went.
and then when i reached the dance studio i still feel weird cos everyone is staring at me like i'm some weirdo who keeps coming back.
oh well, it has always been like that. but anyway later on, joey walked in and it was then i felt a little better. didn't know that she would come. and it felt like god has sent someone to be there for me because He knew that i was uneasy. so thank you for that.
i think the situation in xmcd has really changed a lot since my time.
but yea we all expect that it will change, cos change is the only thing that doesn't change.
okay, confusing, i should just stop that.
anyway, i absolutely hate it when my parents and i are talking about something important and then my parents will just talk and leave the room at the same time, and when they've made their point they will just close the door. then i'm like "HUH?! aren't we in the middle of a conversation here?!" i get really irritated by that.
i think i'm such a moron cos i don't know how to take care of myself properly when i try out any dance stuffs, especially jumps. recently i've had bad landings on jumps TWICE!
first was during huay kuan when i landed badly on my ankle and it hurt for 2 days.
and then its today when i landed badly again and now my toe is really painful. it hurts when i do some stuffs and i pray that it recovers soon!!
i love my life now, because i get to wake up late on weekdays and just do whatever i want.
i don't feel bored yet, in fact i like the calm and serenity on weekdays morning and afternoon
its relaxing, and i've never felt this feeling for quite some time. so yaye to my days of no-need-to-go-to-school-already.
i should spend tmr morning packing up my room too.
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