Thursday, February 09, 2012 // 12:07 AM
Frustrated.
Disliking school for now. would really love a change of environment. but i guess bird was right when she said that there are simply too many external pressure that is tying us down to stay in this school. people, money, life. i feel like this is one of those boulders that is seemingly impossible for me to hurdle over. Its gonna get all over me before i get all over it.
Maybe its just the bad results today.
On second thought, not really. Its everything thats wrong in this freaking environment that i stupidly chose to put myself in. Can't. think. straight. in. this. angsty. feeling.
Ijustreallyhateeverythingthatshappeningnow.
Perhaps, i guess, its especially difficult when i know that i've thrown my heart into doing all these things but somehow your efforts only got you many Bs. I really do feel like a failure, i don't know how i'll survive in the future, being such a mediocre in this society where you don't belong anywhere because you're not the worst but never ever good enough for anything important, or rather, not good enough to be considered useful.
I really dislike the fact that playing not nice can triumph over playing nice. Its just...plain irritating :(
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