Saturday, January 26, 2008 // 11:15 AM
ytd was a rather tiring day
yet i had loads of fun just being able to go out with my friends again
i miss them a lot a lot!!
and i think i have more or less decided on my first few choices already.
i am gonna give up trying to cca appeal into njc
cos even if i can make it, i will be having a hard time catching up.
so that means that i will be putting either sajc or nyjc as first choice
wow hope my decision wont change
since i'm always changing my mind hahah
aiyoh things will be much simplier if there were more schools
with chinese dance as a cca
i think i will really miss chinese dance a lot if i go to sajc or nyjc
cos seriously i really feel that NAFA and TAT are not enough for me
even if i join dance in sajc or nyjc,
its more of contemp and modern
im so worried that i'll have so little contact with chinese dance
that i may not improve much
and then i'll not get into hkapa
and my dream will be shattered just like that.
i don't want that.
i know that i've improved a lot in my results
but i'm sad.
a little disappointed.
i really wish that i can go to a school with a good chinese dance cca
but why are all these schools the top schools?
AHH I WANT CHINESE DANCE!!!!
i can already forsee myself losing touch of chinese dance already.
i think i'm really very ambitious in terms of chinese dance
i just expect a lot from myself
NAFA is fine, but sometimes i think that its not challenging enough
even though i know this year's syllabus is harder than last year.
i don't know, somehow i think its too little of exposure.
TAT's training is good, but trainings are too little
and there's not much exposure to yun4 wei2 and performance
cos its a technique class after all.
but i'm happy that i have two wonderful dance teachers,
wonderful classmates in NAFA and TAT
and i enjoy lessons there.
oh man, everytime i think of the fact that there's no chinese dance in my jc
i get really sad.
i'm afraid you know,
really really scared
that is why i wanted so much to appeal to njc through chinese dance
but the thing is that i may not even get a chance to try for it
because the places in there are full
hais, if only i scored better.
then things will be settled easily haha
i guess that means that i'll have to work even harder to go to hkapa.
but auditions are coming already!
how how how?!
hmm there is still about two more days
to submit my choices
i don't know what to do already haha
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