Monday, February 05, 2007 // 9:09 PM
well i'm blogging for the second time today
i dont know why i keep blogging today lah
just felt like it.
somebody praise me please!
its not that i have so much free time lah
i'm very busy you know
yup so as i was thinking about some stuffs just now
realise that i was actually in a down mood after school today
you know just as i was walking around with limin and valerie,
i really felt like crying
and tears literally welled up in my eyes
its not totally because of physics
but its just...
so many things are happening
and i just dont know how to sort it out
like everyday i go to school,
BAM! something just comes in my way and adds on to the pressure
i do give myself some pressure,
but i just feel so weighed down
and sometimes i just want to be alone
i'm writing this because i just want to express how i'm feeling
you know its feels terrible to keep it to yourself
and i just...need to talk
you know there are moments when
you feel like not dancing
does that mean that you dont like it?
the answer is no.
recently i'm feeling like this
everyone wants to do great
and its getting into me
i do still look forward to practices
but maybe now with an extra tint
of scaredness, and perhaps disappointment.
sometimes i will just pass a remark
saying " can i not go for dance? "
but deep down somewhere in your heart,
you know you really love to dance
and i really dont know what i'm thinking now
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