Monday, March 19, 2007 // 6:22 PM
i think my life is in a mess now.
i never knew how much it mattered to me
until both of us slowly drifted apart.
and yes i agree that it has come to a stage when both of us could no longer care.
i remembered we used to tell each other
that no matter what happens,
we will still be as close to each other.
that we must not let any thing stop us from being the bestest friends in the world
but i guess since we both gone to different classes,
things weren't the same anymore.
we hardly got the chance to see each other.
our recesses were different in the sense that by the time i reached the canteen,
all of you had already eaten and going back to class.
we are not in the same cca.
our timetables are so different that we cannot go back home together.
and...we are so caught up with our own lives
that we forgot each other.
i'm so sorry that all these has happened
its partly my fault too.
and i still remember that we never fought once
and we were so proud of that.
i never once thought that our relationship will come to what it is today.
all the secrets we've shared.
memories we had.
sticking together through thick and thin.
enduring all the scoldings together from our teachers, parents, instructors.
crying together
sharing our joy with other.
doing the best projects together.
we had so much fun just being beside each other.
we dont have to talk to feel each other's company,
and i feel just as happy to know that you are beside me.
whenever something happens
you will be the first person i run to
we promised never to keep any secrets from each other
i learn to rely on you.
you made me realise, for the first time in my life,
what a true friend really is.
and now looking at the state of our friendship,
i can't help but cry to myself
and i seriously dont know why,
but as i'm typing this,
i'm literally crying like crazy
if only i had the chance to turn back time
and choose my subject combination again.
i will definately choose the same combination as you,
so that we wont have to be streamed into different classes
because seriously,
without you
i wouldn't be able to have as much fun as i had during my lower sec days.
i'm not as happy as how i was when you were there.
remember the days we spent mugging together
the days where we will call each other and talk on the phone forever
the days where we slept over at each other's house
the days we will go out together because we want to catch up and spend time with each other
the days where we gossip about everything and anything
the days where people associate me with you, and you with me
we had so much faith in each other
that we could tell each other even our deepest darkest secrets.
its scary to see how both of us can drift so so far apart
that we are no different from strangers
maybe both of us should start putting in some effort
to turn things around
because i know clearly,
that deep down in my heart,
i still want us to be best friends,
and i cherish this friendship ALOT.
wanling,
i miss you
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