Thursday, June 07, 2012 // 12:29 AM
真想大哭一场，近来日子过得真不容易，
口头上可能说一说，闹一闹，就以为自己会心情好一点
但是。。。怎么心还那么痛，心还那么烦，
真搞不懂，这什么心情啊?!?!??!?
我真的停不了，控制不了，收拾不了自己的心情，
可不可以不要那么难受啊！！救命，真的好辛苦
i don't want 茶倌 to turn out like that, i don't want them to think of it this way. i don't want to feel under rehearsed, i don't want to go back so late, i don't want to regret taking up beijing, i don't want to regret hkdc, i don't want to feel like i took up more commitments only to jeopardise commitments that i've taken up earlier. i don't want pei laoshi to not teach me next year, i don't want to be constantly reprimanded for things in hkdc that i wasn't exactly wrong for. i don't want to be the one who isn't worth pushing.
真心想开朗一些，想大声的笑，活泼一点，因为也就在和别人一起胡闹，一起笑谈的时候，我才能把不愉快的心情暂时抛在后脑，
但真的，一个人的时候，很难。
愿我能永远就那么大声地敞开心肠的笑，也不需要面对我知道我无法控制的事情。
凡事始终都要一个人面对，但我这一关，确实很难过
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