Thursday, March 08, 2012 // 11:46 PM
felt like i went through a rough day.
its been such a roller coaster ride, i really wish Hong Kongers should complain less and help more.
choreographic workshop showing today.
it's really a relieved that my piece is over, now i just have to dance for skinny's piece tomorrow which i really hope i don't screw up :x
I feel like i've been so harsh on my dancers but i really try not to get so worked up because i know its not gonna help if i'm any more anxious.
was really nervous before my piece and standing at the lighting&sound cue room really made the whole atmosphere seem so much more grand and important.
But i'm contented with my piece. I'm really thankful that i have such wonderful dancers who doesn't need me to be worried about them. I guess i could have done a better job choreographing, but i know that i've enjoyed the process and it was a pretty good first time experience choreographing for a real performance. There is always a "can be better" for everything so i guess there isn't really a best, but i know that whatever that was performed in tonight's show is a "good enough" for me.
feels like i just got a burden off my chest, but right now i'm just a little scared of facing the teachers tomorrow, it's difficult to get myself prepared for all the bad feedbacks, because i know that i will still feel upset about it.
its taking more and more effort to survive in this class and this school. i guess in some ways, i'm just not a good enough bitch to blend in the crowd.
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