Sunday, March 04, 2012 // 4:36 PM
I don't know for sure, i can't tell.
but something is wrong. doesn't feel right.
another week of school has passed and i still feel like i have 697124872152 things on my hands undone.
next week will be a whole week of preparing for choreographic workshop 1
I don't want to worry about things beyond my control and i don't want to have to worry at all, but i do but i do but i do still worry alot T.T
about what you might ask, i don't even know where to begin.
I don't want to feel like could i have done this/ done that? I feel like giving notes without actually seeing them before the showing scares me. I think so much more about my own piece than the piece that i'm dancing for. Its weird, its irritating, i just want it to stop right now.
love busy school days, but i wish i was more mentally prepared for everything, it feels like everything is happening one after another, and i'm just following instead of thinking ahead. I don't want to be so overwhelmed by the busyness until i can't remember to enjoy myself.
open day next sunday and i just want it to be a nice experience for me. physically and mentally.
i want a weekend to myself please.
having serious pms. think its the stress too. but sometimes i really feel like -ppffffftttttt, who am i to say that i'm stressed -.- i'm actually living the un-stressed life in apa already. you should see the others.
but at the same time, i wish i could have more commitments, more opportunities.
yes the irony -.-
argh. mindblock. need to read 请把屁股放在头上
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