Thursday, February 22, 2007 // 10:05 PM
tuition just ended
and i love today's tuition
becasue we did differentiation trigonometry
which is so nice
because i know how to do it yay!
although there are careless mistakes here and there.
anwyay syf is on the 9th april!
its a monday.
i am so excited!!
we have 46 more days
and about 15 more practices
how little is that????
i really hope we will improve FASTER
because the pace we are at now is so...not good.
we are not there yet,
but i'm sure we will get there (:
hope all syf dancers will put in their best!
you know sometimes,
i feel that we are kind of selfish,
even me.
we always sit around and rest,
we didnt even bother to find the ones who are weaker
and try to help them with their steps.
afterall, we are aiming for the same thing
and doing it together as a team.
many of us have other commitments,
i understand.
having to cope with so many things is not easy.
especially when you have pressure coming from everyone of them
but when it comes to cca, i hope everyone will be serious,
we have extremly high expectations to meet
and i really wish everyone will do well
i dont want to see a situation where
we really have no choice but to cut off people from syf
because then all your efforts will be for nothing
and i'm sure you will feel terrible.
i really don't want to see such a day.
it will be so devastating, really.
what i want to say is,
dare to dance.
only then will you be able to move freely
and express all that is inside you
let the feelings show,
dont hide it!
there's just so many feelings that can be shown in this dance
and when you are unsure of certain things
ask.
get someone you are comfortable with and ask.
its really gonna help you alot
and thats how you learn,
thats how you improve.
i remember when i was sec one
i was so afraid of laoshi,
because i found her quite fierce
and i didnt dare to do the movements
my actions are all so small and confined.
i felt really uncomfortable while dancing
i was hesitating before every training
i didnt really like it
but as i danced more and more with the seniors,
i saw their passion
i saw how they expressed themselves through their movements
and i tried, i took the first step.
it was then i slowly realise how beautiful dance was
and i started to fall deeply in love with it.
i feel so good just being able to dance
because i didnt have to think about all the stress out there,
and just immerse myself into the music.
getting into the syf that time
was really something that boosted me to work harder.
i saw dance in a deeper level
and cca became something i looked forward to every week.
everytime cca ended on that day,
i will have this little bit of sadness in me,
because cca is over and i dont get to dance anymore.
i just felt like dancing somemore.
during our practices for kaleidoscope,
i remember almost everytime after practice,
the few of us will always stay back on our own to do hong2shan4
or we will request for laoshi to let us dance hongshan one more time before she leaves
and it is because all of us really love the dance
and we dont mind doing it over and over again
although everytime after that,
we will be panting and panting
and complaining of the stupid mistakes we make during the dance.
despite everything, we didnt mind all the bruises on our knees
because of all the kneeling and rolling on the floor.
we were willing to sacrifice.
and everytime when laoshi wants to pai2 hongshan during that practice,
we will all be smiling to ourselves for no particular reason,
we just felt happy that we will be doing hongshan that day.
that is what i call passion.
when i was a junior,
i look up to my seniors.
i mean, afterall there are the more experienced ones.
i guess they are the ones who gave me that little amount of courage that i have now,
because they made me realise that it is perfectly okay to just dance freely.
dont constrain yourself, i mean, what for?
as long as you dance from your heart
i'm sure that you will shine!
anyway, its just a matter if you are willing to try and take that first step.
dont be afraid of suffering,
because i tell you, you are going to feel the pain,
muscle aches, your leotard soaking wet with your sweat.
its just what you have to go through.
its like, no pain no gain, right?
keep that passion burning in you.
remember,
use your heart to feel it.
its makes ALOT of difference,
and its what differentiate a good dancer and a not so good one.
"Dancing with the feet is one thing, but dancing with the heart is another." ~anonymous
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