Monday, October 03, 2011 // 11:28 PM
Life has changed
i'm not very sure if i'm enjoying it, but i guess it still hasn't killed me, yet.
Finally a fourth year student, its so weird sometimes when i think of it.
I feel like i've been in school for so long but i've not learnt a lot.
well experienced a lot maybe, but my body hasn't learned much
going for pei laoshi's class everyday sure makes it even more obvious
i don't like it. i don't like havening friends who are just hi-bye and maybe occasionally some juicy gossips here and there
i don't like going for technique classes and shenyun classes where you aren't able to learn from your mistakes. i don't like the kind of pressure and judgement that you give and asume that you are always right. hello, we shouldn't be practising traditional pedagogy here...especially in apa.
i wonder why must you talk in circles when the point that you are trying to make can be said so bluntly.
i'm sorry i just can't adapt to your style of learning, but i'm trying, really.
please don't let it be mind games year 2 all over again. it sucks.
i truly believe that i could learn so much better last year because you weren't there to poke your nose into everything. even though folk can be boring at times but its so funny i feel like i can ask whenever i'm unsure or in difficulty.
i'm not scared of you, i just feel like you never seem to understand where i'm coming from whenever i approach you for help. you don't ever trust anyone do you. oh wait, i forgot you have your beloved boys to make your teaching life so much more worth it. sorry i'm a student student who doesn't know how to learn. thank you for telling me where i suck at and not try to help. thanks
last saturday, lumi laoshi asked me, "瑞敏，你怎样了？上课还上得开心吗？"
ha.ha.ha. i don't know how to answer her.
even though i felt like last year was just a year of technique class filled with forced turn out and various methods of making your body more prone to injuries, but i feel like at the very least, my body movement has been acknowledged, right or wrong, at least our communication is clear.
but its been one month, with technique classes every school day, and yet, i feel like i cannot even decribe the way to go about doing a single movement in our class and which muscle to use and where is all the 线 in our body, and all the chimalogy about where to 松 and 提
i need help.
教学法is just another big headache. i seriously don't understand why you kept emphasizing that its normal and alright to make mistakes when in actual fact you just judge and shoot back at me whenever mistakes are made.
i really want to go to class to learn and not be tested even before i learn
i don't expect you to spoonfeed me, i just need some guidance.
渐渐的
我没冲劲了，怎么办？
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